Wednesday, June 2, 2010

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It’s funny how all the positive things about relationships take center stage in society.
We find comfort in being with someone, a sense of pride even.
But behind the scenes, the core of everything gets such little recognition.
Behind the happy veneer, love is ridiculously hard,
and it’s something you need to constantly work for.
Things don’t just happen on their own.
It takes so much hard fuckin work to be successful.
We have certain expectations for love,
and sometimes when things stray from the plan, we give up.

But that’s just the thing.
Not everything will be in the script,
and sometimes we must improvise instead of letting it break us down.
Not everyone will make the cut.
Only the strong ones who know how much effort must go into making things work;
and not only knowing, but doing everything necessary to make it work.
It’s hard when you realize that things don’t make sense, at least for me.
It’s hard when you’re fighting so hard for something
that seems to be causing you so much pain.

Love makes us crazy.
It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross.
Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in, feeling safe,
feeling sure about the future.
It's about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body,
but pushing forward anyway.
Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it.
And it's so much better than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is
a world of a difference between
feeling 'happy' and feeling whole.

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