01052009

My mind is the farthest thing from a safe haven these days.

I am unable to find peace even in sleep.

But I have moved on to Plan B.

Perhaps not the most well thought-through strategy,

but if it works...

And while it may not bring me happiness at first,

in time, I will prevail,

making all the suffering worth it.

...love is like an addiction, or even a disease.

It eats you up inside, clouds your judgement, makes you crazy.

But at the same time it may be the only sane thing people are capable of.

It's obsession and fear. Happiness and hurt.

Moreso it's believing that the hurt is worth while.

Love is the feeling that you would do anything for what it is that you love,

even if the consequences of that belief could be very harmful to yourself.

Love comes in all kinds of strengths and passions and forms.

Tears and laughter. Happiness and sadness. Pain and joy.

Love isn't one emotion, but all of them.

Love is the feeling of being truly alive.

I'm just waiting for that awakening again.

Gen01052009