06222009

As time progresses and new situations arise,
it is only inevitable that new relationships are formed.
Unfortunately with this, old relationships may also be broken.

I have learned this the hard way,
and although I can't express my gratitude for all that I have,
I sincerely and deeply miss certain people that I have lost.

It is unfortunate to let such a treasured friendship just slip away,
especially after so many years of building it up.
But I understand how loyalties change,
which completely alters the rules of the game.
I just never really expected to have to personally play by them.

Everything happened so quickly.
For so long, I knew my future.
I had everything planned out.
And if you know me at all,
you know how dearly I cling to that.
To being organized.
To knowing what's ahead of me.
But then I went and changed it up.
Not that I regret doing so,
but I miss that security.
Deeper than that,
I miss the bonds I had formed
that were so completely broken
with the changes that occurred.

My greatest fear in this is that
they may never be restored.
And that would truly be heartbreaking.


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