08152009

Why is it that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction?
Why can't something so incredibly good be just that?
Must there always be some kind of negative repercussion
that goes hand in hand with such gratification?
For once, I want to simply experience true happiness
without later having it blemished by some kind of miserable.

Things are starting to bear down on me again.
While I'm better off than many,
I know that I'm capable of so much more.
I am, once again, unsatisfied by my current situation.
I wish my education was much further along than it is.
It's not so much that I don't know what I want to do,
but rather the fact that I can't find anything that
I'm incredibly passionate about to pursue.
And this is perhaps what disturbs me the most.
I think I've found a path,
but there are so many hindrances along it
that at this point,
I can't find a way to the end.

I pray for guidance.
I pray for strength.

Gen08152009